Love Hurts

I wonder why I fall so hard. Some say because I have such a big heart. But I wonder... if I have a such a big heart why that gives guys permission to hurt it even more. I am ready to find someone who isn't a liar. who isn't a cheater. who isn't abusive. who isn't just plain awful. I want someone who will put up with my goofy car dancing, my off key singing, share my dreams, inspire me, challenge me, and be my other half. I am ready for true love... if it even exists. I just don't want to be tricked again and have my heart hurt.
I hope one day I can find that. Until then... I will always remember what my roommate, Lauren, always told me.. "I am a strong confident woman of God."

Happy Birthday Granmary

Today is my Granmary's Birthday. Usually I would call her around noon on October 20 but today I could not do that. My Granmary is up in heaven with Granarrel. I lost her last December and even 10 months later it still doesnt seem real that she is gone. I miss her so much. Every time I eat Cheese toast, 4 bowls, ice cream and cookie dough I always think of her. We had small traditions that I don't go a day without thinking about. This will be the first year I have not carved pumpkins with her, I wont be able to put her Christmas lights up on her porch this year, and I wont put the Angel I got her on top of her tree, and I can't watch our favorite shows together anymore. My life would not be the same without her. I have learned so much from her and she was such a beautiful person.
When I was little I would call her before school and ask her to make me waffles. She would watch me across the street and greet me at the door and the house would smell of delicious waffles and syrup. Even after school I would call her up and she would watch me across and I would go into my craft room and bring out the paints and paper and put it on the kitchen floor and paint a masterpiece (as good a 5 year old could paint) She is also the one who got me hooked on all the crime shows. We would sit and watch hours and hours of Diagnosis Murder, CSI, & Matlock. Spending time with her was like escaping reality. I would be there for hours and not even realize it.
There are so many memories I have with her and so glad she was in my life. I might miss her everyday but I have the memories to hold on to.
I miss you Granmary!!!

Eatin 4 bowls and Salsa... Obviously a favorite! :)

I loved walking across her porch. She would hold my hand and help me balance 

Granarrel and Granmary :) This was about 2 years before Granarrel died. He was still in the kitchen and not in a hospital bed. That is how I remember him best. 

Granarrel and Granmary when they got married. This was in the paper :)

She was always smiling :)

                                                      I loved giving Granarrel kisses!!

Google confuses me!... plus tests...

My password keeps changing on Google for some reason so I can never write posts because I keep having to go in and change it each time. So frustrating! Any way I have had a CRAZY 2 weeks. I have 4 tests this week and so far 3 down. Also got a grade on my STATS test and it was a... DRUM ROLL PLEASEEEEE... 94!!!! I am super excited! I thought I would barely pass Stats and now I have an A!

Modern Family and CSI started back up tonight. I have this tradition of watchin CSI with my really good friend Kristin. We watch from two separate states and we chat throughout the whole thing. We have done it for years and I can't imagine not doing it!

I need more time to blog later and hopefully I wont have to change my password next time!

off to CSI and dreamland!
Katelyn Elizabeth

My life is one big splatter painting

When I have bad days or just frustrating days I like to pull out my canvas, paint brushes, and easel and just paint. I love the peace it gives me and how I can look at a plain white canvas and create something amazing. It just does something to me that helps me relax and refocus. I always joke and say that some of my best creations come when I am frustrated or angry haha! My mom always makes fun of me cause I can spend so much money at Hobby Lobby. Walking in there is just amazing! I love it!! 

Here are a few of my paintings :)

I will put more up when I keep finishing them :)

Painting just helps me relax and get everything back to normal.

I already went to work this morning and was back before 9am... I want to go to back to bed SOOO bad but I have a ton of laundry to do :( Off to clean and get ready for the day! and maybe paint a little :)

OH! Also, it is GAME DAY!!! OSU is playing Arizona tonight. I can't wait to go! Sammy and I went to get me a game day shirt... GO POKES!!! (thanks Mom! <3) 

Off to cheer on my boys and clean my apartment! 

GO POKES!

katelyn elizabeth

Back at the grind...

Well, a lot of things have changed in the past 10 days. I moved back to Stillwater, left Texas, got a job in Stillwater, survived a full week of my Senior year, and went through some pretty rough times, and some pretty wonderful times.

First drastic thing I did was delete Facebook. *insert gasps here* For those who know... Facebook probably consists about 23.5 hours of my day. ok not really but it does take a lot of time. It has been nice not having to go check it every five minutes and see what everybody else is up to. I will get it back when the time is right to be able to share photos and memories. But until then... Facebook free!

Now on to my job... I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job! It is taking care of a 9 year old boy who has down syndrome. He is so loving and an absolute doll. He calls me KK but when he says it it sounds like he is saying Cocoa. I have to be at his house by 7:15 am and I get him ready for school and then take him in the mornings. It is not easy getting up so early but once I see his shining face and that smile in the mornings it is totally worth it.

Classes are going well. Yes Mom, I really am attending all of them. :)  I am taking 13 hours. Physiology, Abnormal Psychology, Physical Disabilities, and Statistics. I am hoping to not make any C's but that Physiology class will be a tough one to crack!

hmmm what else to fill you in on?? OOHH So I watched the VMA's the other day and watching Adele perform made me fall even more in love with her than before! She is simply amazing. I love her voice, the soul behind it, and how I can relate to her songs. I love the calming effect her voice has.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDRwqTNLGDs&ob=av2n
She is coming to Texas October 21... Tickets are not too expensive. I REALLLLLY want to go. It would be so much fun. Maybe I can convince my mom to go with me... :) I also love this song... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYEDA3JcQqw&NR=1

My parents come to visit next weekend Labor Day. I am excited. We are going to the football game, walmart (DUH!) and dinner and just have some family time. I also get to see the love of my life!! My little baby!  I cannot wait to see my puppy. I miss her cuddling with me at night so much!!

Well I am off to bed. This is one sleepy girl! I just wanted to update everyone on some small things in my life :)

I promise to blog more now that I am at a computer everyday. I miss it!!
off to dream land...
KK

Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia. - Charles M. Schulz

Winding Down...

Summer is winding down... its is not fair! I hate that summer is going so fast!! I have been working like a crazy person... no surprise there. 12 hours a day everyday.
$$$$ though :)
Well... I need to go print the schedule for work and then go back up there so I can teach Water Aerobics... BUSY!!!

lovelovelove
KG

What is love?.... and People Watching?

At my job I have a lot of time to people watch. Lets just say this pool is full of interesting people. We have given them names to protect their identity... and as a way to clarify who they are through out the summers haha
We have:

• Crazy Diving Board Lady: This lady, Bless her heart, cannot swim worth anything. My job as a swim instructor and coach requires me to perfect strokes.  All of the years of teaching and coaching have enabled me to just look at someone swimming and I am able to figure out how to make their stroke better. I have watched this lady swim every day for the past 6 summers and for the life of me I have NO idea how she stays afloat. The way she swims is so wrong I literally have no idea how she moves through the water. But the truth is she is there everyday and she loves to swim. I ask her "How far have you swam today?" and her response is always "I don't know... I just Swim" She always arrives 20 minutes early and asks if she can get in early. She is always eager to help get the pool ready for the day and asks to help set things out. This lady might be a little odd but she loves to swim and she lives for it. 
• Bow Lady: This lady (easily over 30) always wears huge bows in her hair. When I was little my mom used to put GIGANTIC bows in my hair. When I say Gigantic I really do mean gigantic! Well....This lady put my hair bows to shame!!!!! I so wish I could post a picture up of her bows because there are no words to describe how large this bow is! She loves those bows. She wears them every time she comes to the pool. I have no idea why she wears them but she wears them proudly!
• Then there is Art. Precious Art. That really is his name. This man is 92 years old and swims a mile a day. His one and only love is his wife Evelyn. His love for her is exactly like the Notebook. I love the look in his eye when he talks about her. She is very sick and you can tell that he hurts knowing he is going to lose her soon. But the love he has for her is forever. 
• Watching the different types of moms is pretty interesting. We have the moms who are so over protective and have to be with their kids the entire time at the pool. then we have the moms who literally drop their kids off and don't show up till several hours later. Then we have the moms who let their children play but always stand a few steps behind them to make sure everything is ok. Seeing the different types of love a mother has for their child is so amazing.

We have several more interesting people at my pool but that would take hours to describe ;) Watching these people on a daily basis I really get to know them in ways they probably don't know themselves. You see the way they react to things, the way to talk to others, and they way the present themselves in such a laid back setting. Seeing how they love different things makes me see that LOVE really is everywhere and that makes me so happy!! It makes me think of these song lyrics..."Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I love you . Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense. Never let your prayin knees get lazy. And love like crazy"

I love the idea of love. No matter what kind of love. If its something you love to do, someone special you love (which I am a total romantic!), or just the ones in your life who you love. I just LOOOOVE the idea of LOVE!! <3

When I am up on stand I have tons of time to sit and think. I think of everything under the sun... literally! haha But one thing that I have been thinking about lately is just the people who are around me and support me and who love me for me. I am no perfect person but they accept me for who I am. Without them I would not be the person I am today. It amazes me to see how my life has changed just because of the love that people show me. All I can do is love you all back :) and I do! I love you all very much!!

lovelovelove

KK